As a child I had a beautiful sense of wonder and optimism, and believed I had seen and experienced life that touched beyond this world. I was in tune with my heart and soul, had a range of emotions I was fostered to be comfortable with, and found anything was possible if I tried hard enough. Yet over time, life events chiseled away at this wonder and magic and sense of purpose in the world.
I also grew up in a church environment that I have come to terms with it being a cult. And in this place I was programmed to put myself last, feel eternally worthless, bend to the needs and wants of my husband, and live as perfectly as possible to ensure the happiness of others, even at the expense of myself. I also learned that if I waivered, I had no faith and was on the path to be cast into outer darkness for eternity, cut off from my family and the joys of heaven. And this programming left me in a perpetual state of extreme anxiety, guilt, depression, and compliance to others.
I entered into my adult life actively seeking love and family and impatiently made my way into this part of my journey, only to find emotional, mental, physical, and sexual abuse. During this time I learned how to put my emotions on hold, create barriers, live life numb, and pull up my boot straps working hard to advance in my career field. I did not heal during this time and so I repeated this impatient calling to be a good wife and jumped into another unhealthy relationship. Here again I had to use my negative resources and keep my chin up while being married for 17 years and then raising two children.
Slowly finding my path through soul-to-soul friendships, therapy, tons and tons of self-help books, podcasts, webinars, and good old fashioned time alone, I started to realize I was worth more. And I also realized that my struggles with trauma, raising a child with significant challenges, experiencing divorce, recovering from a faith crisis and engaging in religious healing, were part of my story, and my story could help change lives. I had so much more of me I wanted to explore and share with the world. I gained the awareness that each of us holds the key to our own transformation. It was then that I recognized I could apply my career field tools and deep skills with other modalities of healing that did not require a prescription to heal from the inside out. I had finally gained my personal sense of courage, voice, and purpose. I stepped into the world of Blended Families and found my real love and my person, and the journey continues. And so Kairos Coaching and Healing came to be.
Welcome to your own journey where your story matters and does not define your future. Kairos–the conditions are right and the time is perfect to set your life course toward that which you desire most!